Friday, June 09, 2006
`I write alone, cry alone, and bleed alone...
Love is a Sickness
by Samuel Daniel (1562 - 1619)
Love is a sickness full of woes,
All remedies refusing;
A plant that with most cutting grows,
Most barren with best using.
Why so?
More we enjoy it, more it dies;
If not enjoy'd, it sighing cries--
Heigh ho!
Love is a torment of the mind,
A tempest everlasting:
And Jove hath made it of a kind
Not well, nor full nor fasting.
Why so?
More we enjoy it, more it dies;
If not enjoy'd, it sighing cries--
Heigh ho!
Ever felt that you are all alone. Well I am right now. I have never been this depressed in my entire life. I feel unwanted. It is not just my problems with bf. It is far more than that.
***Would love measures up?***
What a fucking silly question? I really am not sure what to feel right now. I guess for some reason I feel all tired loving and giving.
I've been in a relationship for two years. Jhiez, at first, was fine but now we are not in good terms (as what I've learned in our ECONOMICS class with Sir Manapat there is this so-called LAW OF DIMINISHING MARGINAL UTILITY). That law states that there would be a time when buyers would get tired supporting their favorite goods in the market. That very law could be applied in any field of our lives even in relationships. HAYZZZ *sigh*
I think that Jhiez might be bored with our relationship or with me. He doesn't admit that. He still claims taht he loves me pero 'di ba if you are in love with the person you'll support your special someone 'til the bitter end. No matter what happens you'll be understanding and sensitive to what your partner feels.
Unfortunately, he doesn't show any concern. I am waiting for him to be nice again. I know that he just wants me to be with him all the time, but that isn't love. I am bound to have a broken home. I am now at my darkest hour yet he demands even more things to me.
It is just fine with me if he'll never get exhausted acting such a selfish bitch. I am okay with that. But noooooo he is far from that. He is worse. 'Yun na nga he never listens and yet he complains a lot.
He doesn't see my pains and agonies.
I BEGGED my aunt just so I could study. My aunt was in rage to find out that my parents' relationship are on the rocks. Why won't she? I am not mad at her. My family is ungrateful to her. I live here with my uncles and aunts. my three uncles are all drug users. One of my cousins uses SHABU and the other is addicted to MARIJUANA. My life since my ELEM DAYS had been a BIG MESS.
I've been molested several times before but my parents haven't done anything when I was a child. We can't do anything since we are just living with MY UNCLES. Both of my parents are jobless so I'm accustomed to their usual fights about money. My pops is an alcoholic gambler. He brags his money (though he doesn't have any). He steals from us (his children) so as to support his debaucheries. I am torn inside and out.
It hurts to live in our wretched home. And know what hurts more my parents are freaking selfish. They don't think of what me and my sister would feel if they would separate. Yeah they LOVE US, 'cause that is what they claim but I couldn't feel that psuedo-LOVE. Is it just me, or am I numb already?
My sister rebels. She is into this habbit of "collecting boyfriends." She goes home late in the evening. I am afraid that if she persists what she's doing she would be in her downfall. She might either get pregnant or be blinded by the influence of her "friends."
I am in deep shit. So glad that God didn't bail me out when I cursed Him for not making my family work. I've done that once. Hatred spurred me. I was blinded by what was happenign to me. He still helped me acquire enough money so as to enroll this sem.
He has been so good to me that He had saved me and cathced me. I guess love wouldn't really measure up. Because if it would then I shouldn't be experiencing these things.
Yeah I know there is a reason for everythign but you might as well admit also that not everything you want is feasible. *cries*
MOOD: pensive
LISTENING TO: All thet I've got (The Used)
I see red and feel red. *sigh* "I am not okay, I not o-fucking-kay" (MCR, I'm not okay)
MY FAVORITE SONG:
Help yourself and read between the lines...
So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I need something average
Someone please just give me
Hit me and knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Predenting I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every clench you sent me
Un-harmed, im losing weight and somebody
Eyes closed so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream f*** me, I....
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Predenting I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream f*** me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
*The Used, All that I've got*
MOOD: contemplative. lolzzz
Thursday, June 08, 2006
`The barricades are down...
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
Just placed Sonnet 18 because it is very inspiring. It talks about the persona's special someone's description. The beauty of love. The glimmering sight of that very person who swept a certain person's HEART in an instant. Pero at times love is not that easy, smooth, and happy. There are also times when love seems to be cruel and painful.
Love is such an irony. It makes you happy but kills you too. According to a movie dialogue (You Got Served): "what doesn't kills makes you stronger." Is this really true? Sometimes we think that love brings us rapture. Hell yeah! We always get fucked up because of that crazy thing called LOVE. We even lose our sanity. A living proof is Marie. She is too in love with Kiko. I feel bad for her because I've felt that before. I felt ashamed, trashed, and ragged.
I pitty her but at the same time I am all greedy to let Kiko fall for her too. Sama noh?! Hekhek. I don't know why I am like this. I feel as if I am into Kiko. I am drown into his comforts. I am used to his attention. I like it when he doesn't admit that he cares for me when truth is he does without IFs and BUTs. He did his best to gain weight because I said so. He would never admit it to me that he does things for me. He may sometimes say sweet and thoughtful remarks to me. Compliment me at his best days and jest whenever I am on the verge of breakingdown. He is a swell friend. He never leaves me hanging. He cares a lot and that's what I love about him.
He makes me feel secured and loved. He is indeed my WATER (sorry Marie for using your metaphor). Now tell me where would I compare someone like Kiko? He is sweet yet I am not putting my 100% trust. He is a playboy, for all I know I am just his toy.
I am such a "slut" (not literal parang greedy lang) to be PLAYING IN THE SAFEST GROUND OF MY LOVE LIFE. I just can't help it. I can't tell bf that I am falling for another guy, though by telling that everything would be a lot easier. Easier? Yep you heard me right!
Things would fall into their places the moment I confess everythign to bf. At first he would be mad. then He'll be in rage and would end up breaking away from our relationship. As easy as it gets, ei? But the question is would i be happy with that? I would never know right now since that was just a make-believe scenario.
...He called...
Yep he did! I was excited. We talked about Marie and how he would deal with the girl's so-called FRUSTRATIONS. I just said to him to keep things real! That would not be the easiest but that IS the most effective and sensitive thing to do. *sighs*
He feels guilty I know it but I can't help telling him to please Marie (not in the passionate way, of course). I guess he was confused with the things I've said. I don't even know why I said those things. I don't know and I am in no position to find out. *grins*
Am I giving him the wrong signals. I am sure that he got depressed. Stupid mouth! Worse, I even bragged my first love's courtship. I am foolish, I know that! I just don't get me anymore.
I am messy and I am very buffled. HAAYYZZ...
...Chumps and champs...
Before creating this entry I get to talk to Jelly, my niece who is older than me, and we shared a lot of secrets. I even get to have a quality time with Kenneth and Jelly. They are smart people and cool to be with.
Tonight Kenneth will be sleeping over our house. Hekhek. I'm used to him sleeping over the house since: first, he is GAY; second, our families are close friends.
Now problem is, how would I ever talk to Kiko when Kenneth is around. he'll be sleeping in our room. Whhhaaaatttt tthhiisss ccaann'tttt bbeee hhaappeennnniinnggg.... *60 seconds before waking up into reality*
Anyways I am also talking with my other friend, via YM MESSENGER, Carl. Carl is emo like WATER. ME and Carl spoke of our favorite punk-rock bands. We both love MCR, DC, The Used, FOB, Thursday... We share a lot in common... When it comes to music. He was even surprised that I was into rock. Hekhek, actually before I am not. But after listening to some emo songs I kindda related my experiences.
I felt understood. Grabe pala talaga ang powers ng music! Huwaw!!!
Oh well... Better eat dinner now... Ciao... *stomach rumbles* hekhek
MOOD: happy (not quite) and hungry (is that a mood?)...
:-?? I don't know - New!
%-( not listening - New!
:@) pig
3:-O cow
:(|) monkey
~:> chicken
@};- rose
%%- good luck
**== flag
(~~) pumpkin
~O) coffee
*-:) idea
8-X skull
=:) bug
>-) alien
:-L frustrated
[-O< praying
$-) money eyes
:-" whistling
b-( feeling beat up
:)>- peace sign
[-X shame on you
\:D/ dancing
>:/ bring it on
;)) hee hee
:-@ chatterbox
^:)^ not worthy
:-j oh go on
(*) star
o-> hiro
o=> billy
o-+ april
(%) yin yang
If there is one thing that made this day great it is Clark. A guy from my cousin's wedding. He is into rock like me. He LOVES Fall Out Boy and their song "Sugar We're Going Down." Grabe I was very stunned we like the same music. He studies Broadcom at Lyceum and guess what he is also a Dean's Lister. Grabe we have so many things in common. Plus may bonus pa gwapo s'ya! Harhar. Ang radar ko gumana na naman. Wakekeke...
Url lang ng freaking hidden smilies DAW...
http://engr.smu.edu/~kaytaz/smiley.html
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
`Tattletales and ramblings...Is life half-empty or hal-full???
***Water and Wind***
I just talked to Kiko and Rico a while ago on the phone. We sure do burn our phone lines. God! This day is pretty tiring. I went to jhiez's house. We snuggled and smacked. I was happy to see him again. I surely did miss him but as the usual story goes we ended up FIGHTING. We had a BIG FIGHT. This time it is VERY HUGE. I feel as if our relationship is bound to end. I don't get to see the point in making this relationship work. I LOVE HIM if that is the question but truth is he is KILLING ME.
Before posting this entry I had the chance to read Marie's blog. Marie the very good friend of Kiko is deeply in love with Kiko. I really don't know that. I just thought that what existed between them was purely FRIENDSHIP. Sadly though Kiko doesn't feel the same. He likes Marie as a FRIEND, nothing more nothing less (hehehe).
For that matter Marie was all chafing so she went on as far as entering a so-caled CONTRACT RELATIONSHIP. A not-so-good relationship with plenty of rules and regulations. A relationship with her EXBOYFRIEND. Duh! Marie's life is pretty messy. tsk, tsk, tsk. I pitty her sincerely that is why I couldn't help myself posting a commentary on her latest entry.
Her entry entails the agendas of their relationship. MArie is a 100% goth girl. She is bleeding like me (but I am not goth). She writes very well and has a pretty good command in the English language. Syempre naman. Why wouldn't she eh she came from UST.
Hayz... *sigh* She even wrote a metaphor in her blog about the wind and the water. The wind pertains to Kiko. Light, strong, yet refreshing. The wind came to her life in a nick of an eye and now the wind rarely blows in her ATMOSPHERE. The water, on the other hand, is her present boyfriend. Sad to say their relationship would expire in a matter of weeks and that is what makes her all grimaced and depressed. The water quenched her PAINS and for that she extends her gratitude to the water. Unfortunately since their relationship is bound to end she never had enough time to realize that she has fallen for the guy. LOVE TOOK HER BY SURPRISE. Weird isn't it? Haha! I feel the same. My wind is my boyfriend and my water is Kuya Kiko.
Things between me and boyfriend are getting muddled, tousled, and clattered. We barely understand each other. To my every heartaches with my boy Kuya Kiko comforted me. He stood beside me giving me strength and telling me that he cares. He knows how much I love my boy. I know that the fact that I am still in love with jhiez hurts Kiko but that is life. I know he likes me as much as I like him. I can't tell what would happen to both of us. I don't want to sound greedy but I can never live without him beside me. I can never wake up each morning without hearing his voice. I know that Kiko might just be anotehr DIVERSION. But honestly HE IS DIFFERENT. He is special. He is the water to my life.
The water that makes me alive. The water that nurishes me. The water that purifies me. The water that cools me down. Now tell me how would I live without this water in my life.
He moves freely and flows perpetually. I know that someday he may drift away from me. Now that is what I fear. It is not only because of my "benifits" with him thta I don't want him out of life, it is much deeper. He made me feel alive. I CAN VERY WELL SAY NOW THAT I AM BRAVE. I CAN SHOUT WITH MUCH PRIDE TO THE WHOLE WORLD THAT I AM BLEEDING. I AM DAMAGED AND BROKEN LIKE HELL.
***Pop you are killing me***
Here I go again blaberring. How would I ever learn to accept the fact that papa is killing us. He is a certified pain in the ass. A genuine SELF-CENTERED old man. Yeah I may sound unforgiving but the hell that is what I am feelig. I am all fucked up, fed up with my life. Seeing him complain of his health when in the very beginning he is the one to blame. He drinks a lot, an alcoholic (hard to admit), gambles a lot, and steals a lot from us.
He doesn't have any bit of RESPECT IN HIS BODY. He destroys my admiration. He was once a good man turned bad. I don't get it?! I don't know why he is like that. I can't figure things out. And damn I am all depressed here. I even wanted to cut myself and see me bleed to death. Before I fear death but now experience taught me not to.
I can die today and still live tomorrow. I would rather endure heartaches definitely than think of things between you and me pop. I am ashamed to admit that I HATE YOU. What can I do? I do every single thing I can just so I could understand your misbehavior. Eventhough you never stood for our family I showed you how I care. I followed everything you told me to (except not having a bf).
Kulang pa ba? 'Yun ang tanong? Is everything not enough. Why us? Why me... Thinking of these things makes me freakout.
Shit! Life is pretty messy! Life is half-empty! Life is a crap without GOD.
Hell yeah I savor each pain I feel and bury them in my deepest and darkest place. I don't know my purpose anymore. I am thankful to have actually feel God's presence. I am putting my every faith in HIM. I believe in HIS words. He would surely save me from these miseries.
I am drenched in loneliness. I fucked up! I am a mess! I am bleeding myself to death...
Life is half-empty but thanks to you my immortal savior I could still feel the sensation over the pain as I bleed to death...
MOOD: bouncy
Nasasabik sa unang araw ng iskwela
Taas kamay with confidence
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
First day of school laging may kaba
Sino ba naman ang gustong mag-isa?
Sana may cute na makatabi
May bagong kaibigan tapos ng klase
Lakas loob, hanapin ang katropa
Sumabay sa sayaw!
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Nasasabik sa unang araw ng iskwela
Taas kamay with confidence
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Umaapaw sa talino, Do the BRAINY high!
Kung mayaman si papa, Do the SOSY high!
Pag mahilig ka sa sports, Do the MVP high!
Kung cool ka at astig, Do the REBEL high!
Pag solid sa bait, Do the NICE GUY high!
Itaas ang kamay
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Nasasabik sa unang araw ng iskwela
Taas kamay with confidence
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Iba't iba ang hilig
Magkakasundo sa trip
Kung gusto mong sumama
WELCOME KANG MAG FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Taas noo, wag kang mag-alala
Tiwala sa sarili, wag ka nang mahihiya
Kumaway't wag kalimutang ngumiti
Sigurado'y sa iyo na may babati
(Hiiiiiiii!)
Lakas loob, hanapin ang katropa
Itaas ang kamay!
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Nasasabik sa unang araw ng iskwela
Taas kamay with confidence
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Umaapaw sa talino, Do the BRAINY high!
Kung mayaman si papa, Do the SOSY high!
Pag mahilig ka sa sports, Do the MVP high!
Kung cool ka at astig, Do the REBEL high!
Pag solid sa bait, Do the NICE GUY high!
Itaas ang kamay
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Nasasabik sa unang araw ng iskwela
Taas kamay with confidence
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Iba't iba ang hilig
Magkakasundo sa trip
Kung gusto mong sumama
WELCOME KANG MAG FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
F-I-R-S-T D-A-Y
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
F-I-R-S-T D-A-Y
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
F-I-R-S-T D-A-Y
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Nasasabik sa unang araw ng iskwela
Taas kamay with confidence
LET'S DO THE FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
Iba't iba ang hilig
Magkakasundo sa trip
Kung gusto mong sumama
WELCOME KANG MAG FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
FIRST DAY HIGH!!!
I am just plain excited that school would open in just a matter of days. I am so done living my boring life inside the house. Not that I am saying that living with my family is boring. Well I am just honest enough to say that spending time inside the house and speaking to no one but the players here in Kuya Eil's computer shop. I feel all bored and soaked. *SIGH*
THINGS THAT I AM EXCITED IN THE COMING SCHOOL YEAR:
1. new school shoes
2. new pens
3. cute guys
4. friends
5. blockmates
6. cool professors
7. duty sa OSA
8. meeting new pals
9. prospects
10. cute professors
11. BAON...
Robber's cloth rag, found in Tutankhamen's tomb,
which contained gold rings. The thieves probably
dropped it when caught by necropolis officials.
(Photo Credit: Howard Carter and A. C. Mace, The Tomb
of Tut-ankh-amen (London, 1923--1933.)
I was watching NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC'S TOP 5: ANCIENT EGYPT yesterday when jhiez texted me and told me to come to their house. Unfortunately I was not able to come to their place, reason was "I JUST DON'T WANT TO." Evil me stroke again! HARHAR. Anyways while I was watching the featured presentation I was definitely taken aback. I did not imagine how tomb robbing became FAMOUS in Egypt. For once I thought that only the lowest dregs of their society could commit such mischievous acts but na-ah even persons from the middle class (a.k.a. the nobles) would steal and perform sacrilege to their KING-GODS.
I suddenly became amazed to ANCIENT EGYPTS mysteries and pratices. Beautifying the pharaohs' tombs was a sine qua non for they all believe that the dead should carry all their precious belongings to the AFTERLIFE. Well basically Egyptians think that the afterlife is pretty much like EGYPT during their times. That is the very reason why they hoard treasures to the necropolis and after the burial they seal the tombs and all the riches buried under hundred miles would all be GONE FOR ETERNITY.
Now this in turn made the poor and even the middle class all greedy. They felt that such riches don't deserve being buried and forgotten. Grabe 'di ba and I thought dito lang sa 'Pinas may mga ROBBERS and DESPARATES. But come to think of it those tomb robbers though they are criminals still had their POINT.
Masyado nag naman kasing pinaghahandaan ang afterlife ng kings nila. Uhhhmm... Tsk, tsk, tsk. Pharaohs' pleasures are Egyptians' pain?! Parang ganun ang story. *sigh*
National Geo's show featured a guy his name was something like Pinudem (I can't barely remember the exact name, so sorry). GRabe the guy was a foreman but he was just a plain craftsman before. He even ended up killing his STEPFATHER (who adopted him) so as to be the foreman. His stepuncle, on the other hand, became very jealous so he recorded every act done by Pinudem. To make the story short Pinudem was killed, en masse, and impaled (using a bamboo stick).
Egyptian justice was HARSH as we all know. Impaling in the Egyptians' version of crucifixion. After impaling the sentenced CRIMINALS would be erased in the society's record as if the person did not exist. Records about the criminal would be burnt.
HARSH TO THE ENTH POWER! Wala lang I just thought that what if Philippines has a portion of ANCIENT EGYPT's justice. Eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth.
Well I just can't help thinking that maybe if our justice is quite tight I guess crime rate would be LOWER. Quite right, ei???
MOOD: grimaced??? lolz...
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
`TICKLE PSYCHO TESTS...*to know me better you must read the succeeding paragraphs.
Queennie, your crush is the Class President
Hello, First Lady. A smart and motivated gal like you should set your sights high when it comes to your crush. Forget the slackers or burnouts. You should go for a guy who's got brains, ambition, and people skills (good looks wouldn't hurt either). Only an achiever and well-liked beau will be able to keep up with a first-class lass like you.
A guy who's heading up the student council, spearheading a car-wash fundraiser, and winning everyone over with his charisma and charm is the right candidate for you. He's the responsible type who'll make Mom and Dad proud. And you'll feel proud when your next stop is the campaign trail or The White House!
Queennie, you're an Artiste!
Your type is the Artiste
Creative. Sensitive. A bit offbeat. Your type is the Artiste, a unique guywho knows how to express himself in many ways, whether it's through words,music, or attire. You're attracted to his unconventional ways and hisremarkable talents. He doesn't feel compelled to abide by society's norms.He believes that individuality is the key to happiness, and everything hedoes is a reflection of his "inner self." You fall head-over-heels for suchconfidence and style. Whether he's playing a song he wrote for just you orwriting you a love letter, this guy knows how to make you feel special. He'sin touch with his feminine side and doesn't need to assert his masculinityto feel manly. If we were to paint a picture of your future, the Artistewould definitely be part of it!
Queennie, your fantasy home is a Relaxed Retreat
Home sweet home. For a low-key person like you, your home should be a comfortable and warm place that soothes your spirit and warms your soul. After a tough day, you'd probably rather head to your cozy haven than blow off steam at the gym or out on the town.
Whether you're lounging on an overstuffed couch, taking a bath, or cooking dinner, your home is a place to relax and be yourself. That's why you're sure to fill it with all the creature comforts that make it so inviting to you and everyone you know. So put your feet up, kick back, and enjoy!
Queennie, you're a Doomed Middle Low!
Your Relationship
Good news — it looks like your relationship is on solid ground. You've probably just moved beyond the "honeymoon" phase and into reality. Most of the time that nervous, excited "heart-beating-faster" feeling matures into a deeper, more stable connection. And that's okay — really! If you're having doubts, though, try spending a little extra time nurturing your relationship and focusing on the intense friendship and romance you've developed. If you're still concerned in a month, come back and take this test again. But chances are you'll adjust nicely and enjoy yourself immensely!
* cant believe this one...
Queennie, you're Shy 'n' Sexy
When it comes to sex appeal, you have it — and you know it. It's just that you hold it back until you're more secure with the person of your affections. Were you the kind of kid who was nervous about the first day of school even though you knew you were smart enough to compete?
Let's face it, you probably know what you're great at, it's just getting over that initial bump of meeting someone new, getting used to them, and warming up to a situation that gives people the impression you might be a little more tame than others. But look out. Because when you reach your comfort level, you're in the zone.
Your lovers are the lucky ones because they're the only people who really know what lies beneath your timid exterior. Sure you might shy away from steamy looks in public. But get you behind closed doors and you're ready to unleash your true sexual powers. You may be shy, but you know how to hook and reel 'em in.
MOOD: tongue-tied right now... (?)
Gatorade, my Jhiez, first day of school, Kuya Kiko, swimming, The Used, Sugar we're going down (FOB), internet, chatroom, chicharon, blockmates, terror professors, new building (UST), library (UST), Dapitan, P. Noval, colayco Park (paalam), Angelo Suarez (wahehehe), poems, PGC (like duh... that was so two years ago), Sir Jalin, Sir Baccay, Sir Coronacion, Ms. Arlene Domingo, bio class with MR. OLIVAR, the science freak-- JOHN, Red RIBBON, FRAP, cheesecake, lecheflan, cam, punkrock, blood, goth, EMILY THE STRANGE, suicide, sex, seven capital sins (?), Kuya Jan, ERIC, You to me are everything (the real thing)...
MOOD: LUCID... haha lolzzz
Dreams are answers to questions we haven't yet figured out how to ask (from X-FILES). I suddenly remember the paranormal. Still thoughts I guess but ever wonder why we get to experience dreams that are prophetic??? Minsan weird talaga. I just came across a certain website with a list of DREAMS. How we interpret thme that I don't know.
What I discovered was pretty interesting. Because I don't know why I have been dreaming of my "suspected MR. RIGHT." I never had the cahnce to see his face but at least I recognize his voice. I felt bothered because of that RECURRING DREAM hay...
I'll just be posting the different kinds of dreams....
Daydreams
Studies show that we all have the tendency to daydream an average of 70-120 minutes a day. Day dreaming is classified as a level of consciousness between sleep and wakefulness. It occurs during our waking hours when we let our imagination carry us away. As our minds begin to wander and our level of awareness decreases, we lose ourselves in our imagined scenario and fantasy. Click here for a more in depth look at daydreams.
Lucid Dreams
Lucid dreams occurs when you realize you are dreaming. "Wait a second. This is only a dream!" Most dreamers wake themselves up once they realize that they are only dreaming. Other dreamers have cultivated the skill to remain in the lucid state of dreaming. They become an active participant in their own dreams, making decisions in their dreams and influencing the dream's outcome without awakening. Click here for a more in depth look at lucid dreams.
Nightmares
A nightmare is a disturbing dream that causes the dreamer to wake up feeling anxious and frightened. Nightmares may be a response to real life trauma and situations. These type of nightmares fall under a special category called Post-traumatic Stress Nightmare (PSN). Nightmares may also occur because we have ignored or refused to accept a particular life situation. Research shows that most people who have regular nightmares have had a family history of psychiatric problems, bad drug experiences, people who have contemplated suicide, and/or rocky relationships. Nightmares are an indication of a fear that needs to be acknowledged and confronted. It is a way for our subconscious to make up take notice. "Pay attention!" Click here for a more in depth look at nightmares.
Recurring Dreams
Recurring dreams repeat themselves with little variation in story or theme. These dreams may be positive, but most often they are nightmarish in content. Dreams may recur because a conflict depicted in the dream remains unresolved or ignored. Once you have found a resolution to the problem, your recurring dreams will cease. Click here for a more in depth look of recurring dreams..
Healing Dreams
Healing dreams serve as messages for the dreamer in regards to their health. Many dream experts believe that dreams can help us avoid potential health problems and help us to heal when we are ill. Our bodies are able to communicate to us through our dreams to "tell" us that something is not quite right with our bodies even before any physical symptoms show up. Dreams of this nature may be telling the dreamer that he/she needs to go to the dentist or doctor.
Prophetic Dreams
Prophetic dreams, also referred to as precognitive or pyschic dreams, are dreams that seemingly foretell the future. One rational theory to explain this phenomenon is that our dreaming mind is able to piece together bits of information and observation that we normally overlook or that we do not seriously consider. In other words, our unconscious mind knows what is coming before we consciously piece together the same information.
Signal Dreams
Signal dreams help you how to solve problems or make decisions in your waking life.
Epic Dreams
Epic dreams (or Great dreams) are so huge, so compelling, and so vivid that you cannot ignore them. The details of such dreams remain with you for years, as if your dreamt it last night. These dreams possess much beauty and contain many archetypal symbology. When you wake up from such a dream, you feel that you have discovered something profound or amazing about yourself or about the world. It feels like a life-changing experience.
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